8:30 AM
Phone: Ring, Ring!!
“Hello?”
“Hi, is Maggie around?”
Oh, I’m wide awake now. “Uhm, can I ask who’s calling, please?”
“This is Jim.* I’m an old friend of Maggie’s and wanted to say hi. This is Chris, right?”
“Hi, Jim. Uhm… Jim, I guess it’s been a while since you’ve talked to her. I’m sorry to say but…..”
TGIF, no? Continue reading Who Am I?
“I can’t believe this is how it’s gonna be,” she said. It was one of the last few things she said to me. I still can’t believe it either. What a tragic, premature end to a life with such enormous potential. It’s just so, so difficult for me to get my head around. As I reflect on that moment, scratching willingly on still-fresh wounds, I can’t help but wonder how she felt and what she was thinking. We were so open with our feelings and communicated so effortlessly throughout our relationship. Yet, at a time when the emotional volume was turned up much, much louder than ever before, we had so little ability to share. It breaks my heart. Still. Continue reading Still Hard to Believe
Over the last week or so I’ve been changing things around the house a bit. I haven’t really thrown anything away (other than that silly abs exercise machine Maggie bought from a late night TV commercial eight years ago.) I’m mostly moving things around, adjusting, if you will, trying to settle into (or maybe just discover) my new life. Continue reading Adjusting My World