Happy Birthday, My Angel

Today would have been Maggie’s 34th birthday.  I’m so, so sad today it’s hard to put words to the depths of my sorrow.  I feel like my heart is breaking yet again.

Maggie’s phone is still on.  Despite the monthly bill, I haven’t canceled it because it pained me to think I’d lose the last sound of my sweeties voice, the outgoing message on her voicemail.  I asked a friend to help me out by recording it.  Today they sent me the recording.  I’ve listened to it on repeat since I got it and haven’t stopped crying yet.  If you would like, you can listen, too.  You won’t be alone as you cry.


Happy birthday, My Angel, where ever you are.  I can hardly wait to hold you again.

13 thoughts on “Happy Birthday, My Angel

  1. … what a wonderful recording, especially paired with the song. I’ve saved the .mp3 file to my computer. Thank you for posting this. Hugs to you.

  2. When you don’t know someone and you talk to them on the phone, you get an image in your head of what they look like. This was the opposite for me. Since I’ve seen the pictures, I had imagined what Maggie’s voice sounded like and was a bit surprised to actually hear it. Not a bad surprise, or a good surprise, just different than what I expected (and isn’t that the way it always is). I’ve followed your posts for a long while now (and yes I ask myself “why” other than I have such a caring heart and you are an amazing writer!!) and while I can’t say I know what you’ve been through I have a good friend who has been there. In fact, this couple was so well matched they grew up down the street from one another and always knew they’d be together a lifetime. So I’ve witnessed how “life goes on.” Its a painful path, but you seem to have so many friends and family to support you. That in itself is truly a blessing. Take care, stay strong, and thanks for the updates!

  3. Thank you for that Chris. I’ve wanted to call Maggie’s phone so many times but didn’t want to startle you. Again thank you, it’s nice to hear her voice again.

  4. Thank so much for letting us in to your life…and sharing the most precious thing to you..Maggie…hearing her voice makes her more real to me that now i can say that i have heard her…thanx..

  5. I’m so glad I got to see you this past week while I was there. I haven’t been able to check for updates since I’ve been gone, but hear I sit crying too. I also have Maggie’s phone number still saved in my phone book on the cell and have not been able to delete it. I also have wanted to call, but like Leslee…I was afraid to startle or upset you. This is absolutely beautiful and thank you so much for sharing it with all of us.

  6. Thank you Chris. The recording is beautiful. And, I hope I never forget her voice. I have a picture of Maggie, that I’m looking at now. It is in a small wooden framed photo album that she gave me we dated for those brief and wonderful months of early ’99. I am looking at the wonderful photo of her, which has been in the cover since she gave it to me. She’s smiling with the sun shining down and glowing around her hair with her pup Gatspy standing guard behind as she sat on a blanket. That day she’d surprised me with a “picnic” along the banks of Barton Creek. We ate grapes and it was the first time I had bre on some special type of crackers and bread she got. I think we drank some good wine too. But, I was always intoxicated with her presence. It was dreamlike. I was in love with her.. I’ve missed her for ten years. Mark

  7. I saw a girl today in my yoga class that looked like Maggie and I couldn’t stop staring at her. I got really sad when I left and the day was a dreary one (weather wise).

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