Archives for May 2009
Tough Time, Cont’d
Published on 30 May 2009 at 1:33 pm.
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Last night I went with a friend and her seven-year-old daughter to see the Pixar movie “Up.” I thought “Ah, what better than a nice, animated children’s comedy to finish off the week!” Turns out, it wasn’t quite the pick-me-up I was looking for. The previews are quite funny and bill the movie as documenting [...]
Tough Day
Published on 26 May 2009 at 12:20 am.
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Today marks three weeks since I, or rather, we lost my sweet Maggie. It’s been a tough day for me, definitely the toughest in a while by far. It feels like I’m peeling an onion of emotion, one layer at a time. With each successive layer, the deeper the pain and, presumably, the longer it [...]
Maggie in the News
Published on 25 May 2009 at 5:03 pm.
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An article in the Waco Tribune mentioned Maggie yesterday.
Healing
Published on 22 May 2009 at 1:23 pm.
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1186 views.
Maggie’s absence sits like a bitter, crumbling pill in the back of my throat, refusing to dislodge despite ample flushing with alcohol and tears.* As days pass, the crispness of my memories of my sweet love are beginning to fade, turning instead to fuzzy approximations. That which once was just a glance away I now [...]
Maggie Kisses
Published on 19 May 2009 at 12:30 pm.
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1693 views.
With little doubt in my mind, Maggie has sent me a message. It’s an “I Love You!” from beyond, or rather maybe a “You can do this!” along with a “You have such an exciting life yet to come!” I can even hear her voice when I read the words. I’m smiling through my tears.
Two Kinds of Pain
Published on 17 May 2009 at 11:47 pm.
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1326 views.
It’s been nearly two weeks now since It happened. It feels like it was so long ago and yet like it was yesterday. Two distinct pains fight for my attention. The sharpest pain comes from the memory of the last two weeks of Maggie’s life, watching her suffer through miserable circumstances. More specifically, the last [...]
Hard Mornings
Published on 16 May 2009 at 10:28 am.
23 Comments.
1376 views.
It’s hard to get out of bed in the morning. Mornings used to be a favorite time of ours. She’d wake up with a smile and spring out of bed, pestering me with some master plan for the day’s activities. We’d shower together and discuss her plan and how I fit in [...]
Walked Through Fire
Published on 14 May 2009 at 12:43 am.
19 Comments.
1689 views.
Without fanfare, it has begun. A process just months ago I could not have fathomed. Just a short three years ago were you to tell me what I know today I may have punched you in the jaw. But, today, something I never wanted since the day she and I met, today [...]
Pain Pump is Gone
Published on 13 May 2009 at 10:04 am.
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1227 views.
They came to get her pain pump yesterday. With it, they took a bag I put together full of other various items we’ve been using daily since November of last year: tubes, saline flushes, heparin flushes, bandages, medicine packs of fentanyl, alcohol wipes, UV brown plastic bags. None of it belonged here and [...]
Missing Her
Published on 11 May 2009 at 9:39 pm.
27 Comments.
1845 views.
Evidence I’m Ok:
I’ve laughed.
I’ve cried openly.
I’ve been spending time with friends and family.
I’ve gone to two movies (Wolverine and Star Trek – both great!)
I’ve cracked jokes, even inappropriate death jokes (which really are the funniest)
I’ve drank a lot of beer.
I haven’t killed <fill in the blank from the following list: myself, someone trying to cheer [...]