Spa Went Fine
3 Sep 2008 at 2:41 pm. 20 Comments. 416 views.
Today’s Spa visit went fine - no crazy adverse reactions or dramatic moments. We got our poisons and came home. (more…)
Trying Again Tomorrow
2 Sep 2008 at 9:58 am. 5 Comments. 339 views.
CPT-11 is the real poison for the tumors. Without it, the tumors are free to grow unimpeded. Xeloda, as we understand it, is the kicker - it adds the zing to the CPT-11. But to get the tumors to stop growing we need to get the strong stuff in there and working ASAP. So this morning, without an appointment, Maggie headed down to The Spa to see if they could squeeze her in. (more…)
A New Look
2 Sep 2008 at 9:33 am. 14 Comments. 369 views.
If the hair has got to go then we might as well have fun with it while it’s here! Here’s Maggie’s new, albeit temporary, look. (more…)
Today is Better
1 Sep 2008 at 1:28 pm. 5 Comments. 304 views.
Today our heads are better. Maggie is still having notable chest pain which we have decided is caused by soreness from her rigors that occurred at The Spa on Friday. The vigorousness of the shaking that went on could certainly cause soreness in many areas. I’ve re-enacted Friday’s show for Maggie to see and, from my little experiment, it’s quite simple to see the relationship. So, for now on, that’s what the pain is from and nothing else. That doesn’t get rid of it, however, but baths and lots of laying around help quite a bit. Her, not me. (more…)
Saturday
30 Aug 2008 at 11:38 pm. 2 Comments. 309 views.
Maggie woke up sad and I woke up angry. But we share this sick feeling in the pit of our stomachs. We are tying to smile but it’s tough. And we both agree that it seems to hurt a lot worse this time around. I think the second time around it’s just harder to start the climb when you know what the hill looks like. Is the hill bigger this time around? It looks it from where we’re standing. (more…)
Really Crappy Day
30 Aug 2008 at 12:44 am. 11 Comments. 414 views.
Today sucked. Our Spa visit set the new bar for crappy. At one point, we had at least four nurses, two pharmacists and two EKG machines working on Maggie at one time. But I’m getting ahead of myself. (more…)
News
27 Aug 2008 at 6:13 pm. 23 Comments. 512 views.
The cancer has spread to her lungs and chest. Friday we’ll start CPT-11 and Erbitux.
My heart hurts.
Waiting…
25 Aug 2008 at 2:00 pm. 4 Comments. 349 views.
This morning we had our umpteenth CAT scan. Same drill - drink berry-flavor barium yuckiness, half a bottle two hours before, the remaining one hour before; sit forever in the cold waiting room; small IV in the arm; ugly, thin gown; lay very still in the machine; weird dye high with the IV push; and done. We did get through it this time without throwing up, which is definitely a plus. The CAT machine is pretty happy about that, too. (more…)
A Deep Breath
18 Aug 2008 at 5:51 pm. 3 Comments. 346 views.
I find that with time I’ve been able to soften the sharp edges on the memories of what happened to us last year. I suppose that type of brain wiring is intentional by design else life would be a lot more challenging than it is already. Thankfully, Maggie and I can carry on daily with blissful ignorance of what’s going to happen. We are having a great time and living a wonderful life full of excitement and bright futures. But, just like a beaten dog that cowers from a raised hand, one quick phone call can sure palpitate my heart. (more…)
Spa Visit Yesterday
7 Aug 2008 at 11:19 am. 3 Comments. 390 views.
Yesterday’s Spa visit was interesting but nothing too worrisome. Maggie’s port-o-cath is acting up and Dr. Loukas has planned to reduce Maggie’s dosage of Avastin “until something happens.” (more…)